Saturday, June 29, 2013

My Wild Roller Coaster Ride

The past couple months have been an interesting and rough ride. I got my place back to myself (wahoo!) and I now get to enjoy the single-by-myself-life again. I know that sounds sad, but it's when I'm the happiest. It's all part of being an introvert. Don't misunderstand me, I still have a social life, but I do like to go home and have the place to myself, and there's nothing wrong with that. On top of getting my place back, I also quit my job. I couldn't work at a place that would rather keep an ex-convict embezzler who has control issues and makes people's lives that she can't control a living hell on the payroll, than a person who has been loyal to the company, never lied about their past (because there isn't one), and did a damn good job. So I said screw that and found me a new job. Once the word got out that I had quit, I didn't exactly get the best reception from my fellow employees, and it made it that much easier to leave. Especially when I was taken out to lunch and told how much I am appreciated and how they wish me luck at the new job, and then three hours later kick me out of the office and don't let me finish out my two weeks. I'm ok with it. It's just kind of a shitty thing to do. On the bright side I did get to have six days off which was awesome since I hadn't taken any real time off the entire year.

The next week I start my new job and it's not as advertised at all, I have a complete melt down after the first day. The melt down included having my youngest sister tell me she wants to have nothing to do with me anymore, so there goes seeing my nephew ever again. This comes on top of having my other sister do the same thing to me a month earlier (I'm pretty sure they're in cahoots). And neither can really give me a straight answer as to why they chose to do this. All I can say is it hurt like a bitch.

Anyway, so I make it through a horrible week of dealing with a job I'm not liking and the residual feelings of knowing my sisters hate me, and then I get an offer to interview at another place. Hell yes! So I do the interview and spend the weekend in my head hoping it will all work out. I go to work on Monday with the hope that I will hear back from this other job and they will have offered it to me. I get home and lo and behold there is an email offering me the job! So I quit the other one, accept the new one and start the new job on Wednesday. So far it's a pretty good fit, I'm only three days in, but I haven't wanted to puke from stress, so I figure that's a good thing.

Honestly I have never felt so low and so high over the past couple months. The highs have been amazing and the lows have been pretty low. If it weren't for the amazing friends I have (and you know who you are), I don't know that I'd still be here with my sanity intact. I love you guys, and thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting up with me and my craziness. It means the world to me.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

My New Adventure

There comes a time in everyone's life where they say "I need to make a change". It may happen multiple times in one's life, but the end result is always knowing that you're doing it for yourself. That the decisions you make for that change are to make you a happier person. I have come to that point in my life once again where "I need to make a change", and this change involves starting a new job.

This has been a long time coming when I think about it. I haven't really been happy at my job for 2-3 years. And that had a large part to do with some of the people working there. One in particular actually. Well that person was terminated about a year ago, and I hoped by this change that my happiness would return. Boy was I wrong. Turns out this person wasn't the only problem, there was another. And then another. See you would begin to think that maybe I'm the problem. But in reality, the company I will soon be leaving has a tendency to carry dead weight and ill fitting people for a lot longer than they should. They tend to hold onto the poison while the good wither away. This is the case in my situation. I'm not the first to leave because of conflict with co-workers, and I won't be the last. Needless to say I made my decision to leave, and the closer it gets, the more happy I get. I know this decision will be the best thing for me right now.

I also know that I have a lot to look forward to in the future. A potential joint venture with my bestie Jordan, my being on my own again and rediscovering myself. Again. And the chance to be really happy. I love when people tell you that you make your own happiness. It's true. To an extent. You can only ignore the negativity for so long before you have to do something about it. And now is the time for me to do something. So I'm leaving the job I've been at for nearly 8 years, to move onto a similar job where I will make more money and also hopefully make new lasting relationships. I will miss most of the people I work with currently. There really are some good people there, but I will also be so glad to rid myself of the poison that is also there.

And so my new adventure will begin in a little over a week, and I'm beyond excited for this new chapter in my life. Allons-y!